I have been feeling a little bit off these days and I really don’t know why. I am not sick or anything, heck I’m healthy as a horse, but I have got this rather nagging feeling that something is wrong somewhere. No I’m not into anything psychedelic or hallucinating and I’m neither paranoid nor a hypochondriac for that matter. The different feeling is just there in my head, playing games with me and successfully managing to bother me all the time.
You know how it is and you may have probably experienced these kinds of things at some point in your life. Don’t lie now. Well I guess it’s probably my turn now on the horse.
Speaking of horses, well I guess mine are already on to me somehow as they are kind of keeping away from me subtly. Again I’m not being paranoid and stuff, I’ve been around these horses for the longest time and I know when they do things out of the ordinary or if something is amiss with them.
I am feeling confused about something every now and then and without any reason at all. I sometimes stare at one thing and get lost in thought, like yesterday when I was making myself some coffee and was staring at the cup for the longest time thinking about why I was looking at it in the first place. Good thing the kettle whistled me back to my senses.
Maybe it is what they refer to as the midlife crisis that we all go through during middle age.
I have read about it yesterday and indeed I have several of the symptoms associated with it.
I kept remembering the times when I was still young, I kept recalling my old friends and all of the time we spent together, I want to change something in my life but don’t really know which one, I wanted a new hobby or something else to pass the time with but generally fail to see which suits me best, and I’m easily distracted, even by the smallest things.
Maybe that’s really it. Maybe I’m going through such a phase right now. I am in good health and not wanting of anything else in my life yet I am feeling this way. I am at the prescribed age for it and all things point to my being with it, so maybe it’s really it that I’m having.
What am I going to do with it now? Well I think I just did the first step in recognizing it, now curing it would be the logical next step. Or maybe I’ll just let it run its course and just enjoy the ride. That is if I can remember everything that will transpire at all. Maybe I’ll just be the crazy old loon and badger my way through it.
Maybe it’s really time to get to buy that best yoga DVD that I’ve been eyeing for a long time, you know, to relax the mind and body at the same time. Maybe that could help. Or probably that best pack n play play yard that I’ve been thinking of this whole afternoon. My sister keeps telling me to get that for my nephew.